Thank you so much Mrs. R and everyone. It makes it easier to know that there is someone else who understands what you are going through. I am dealing with the situation much better now. I realize that their shunning is on them. My heart and door is open for them, it is them that choose to close theirs. Maybe someday they will be more loving. I will in any case continue to pray for them. This however is my reply to them.
Again I can just pray something will touch them and open their eyes.
I do thank God for all of you though and appreciate how much you all care. It helps get through the tough times.
I understand what you mean when you say "hmmm
where to start." I feel the same way. First off, you
are in no way to blame. You did reach my heart in more
ways than you know. You gave me morals that are higher
than the average person. You also gave me a deep
commitment and love for God. I guess you were right
though that I never really dedicated my self to
Jehovah even though I was baptized.When I was baptized
they (the org) took out the scripture Matt. 28:19,
where you are to be baptized in the name of the
Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. They changed this
in 1985. The Jun 1, 1985 WT. had the new questions
printed in it. Passing a test of sorts ( answering
questions from a book) instead of passing God's
requirements (Romans 10:9&10) isn't biblical.
Mom, you gave me the Society's definition of an
apostate. So, in fairness let me give you the
THE AMERICAN HERITAGE DICTIONARY
One who has abandoned ones religious faith, a
political party, ones principles or a cause.
WEBSTER'S NEW WORLD DICTIONARY
An abandoning of what one believed in as a faith.
According to these definitions I am NOT an apostate
because I never abandoned God nor my belief in Him. I
also have never lost my faith. I would even say that I
have more faith than ever before. It is the
Organization that worries me.
I know you are not ignorant or gullible but
NEVER has Jehovah uttered a false prophecy. You are
100% right when you say that Jehovah has used
imperfect men in the past. However, not one of those
men has uttered a prophecy that was not accurately
fulfilled. Right down to Jesus riding into town on a
As far as the light getting brighter and
brighter, The light is Jesus. (John 1:6-9) The
knowledge of Jesus continues to get brighter and
I really also think that maybe I have given you a
wrong impression. When I said I wanted to be a
Christian, I didn't mean to imply that I was "opting
for an easy way out." Not by far. The Bible clearly
tells what is right and whats wrong. In front of the
Catholic Bible it says, "The Bible is extremely
difficult to understand, even by Bible scholars. It
was written in languages long dead, and in a manner
and idiom of that time. To interpret the Bible, it is
not only necessary to understand the languages in
which the Bible was written, but to understand the
meanings of the words of the Bible had at the time
they were written. The Bible therefore, has to be
interpreted to be understood and for Catholics, The
Church, guided by the Holy Spirit, is the official
guardian and infallible interpreter of the Bible."
Sound familiar? (2/15/1981 WT, Do we need help to
understand the Bible?)
You said, "No meetings". We do go to church 3
times a week and sometimes more. "No one to answer to"
We most certainly have someone to answer to, God! "No
regulations" The Bible and the Bible ONLY sets our
rules and regulations. And finally, "No preaching"
Lets see, once a month there is the soup kitchen we
sometimes volunteer at. We recently volunteered to
open shelters for the hurricane evacuees. You may be
saying, Laura, this isn't preaching, its helping out or
volunteering in the community. Sometimes our actions
and love we show for those in need is the only bible
they may ever read. There is still more preaching
though. We hand out the book of John with McDonald
coupons in it to the homeless we find. We are
currently holding Bible studies with people in Kenya &
Nairobi Africa. Someday we plan on going to Africa to
be missionaries. Lastly if that isn't enough, next
weekend I will be going to prison again. This is my
3rd prison ministry visit. I go on Friday and spend 3
days encouraging, teaching and offering hope to women
there. I spend 3 days in their cells or dorm with
them, even sharing meals with them. Of course we get
a hotel room at night. So, you see I don't opt for the
easy way out by far. I full well know the importance
of preaching. (Mt. 25:35-46, Mt. 28:18-20) There are
many, many more times w have preached as well. God is
the only one I account my hours preaching to.
I thought about how you said when you were a
Christian you had nothing but confusion and questions.
Sometimes the easy way out is having someone tell you
the answers to all your questions. As long as it makes
sense your satisfied and content. What though if the
answer is wrong? It is harder to clear up questions
and confusion on your own but with God's help it can
be done. This is one reason God gave us the Holy
Spirit. If there are still questions and confusion,
that's OK too. No where in the Bible does it say that
we need to have all the answers. I would rather be
confused and pray and search than blindly follow the
organization. The new "Organized to do Jehovah's Will"
book tells you to do just that. On page 20 it says,
"Another way to show that we trust the slave class
today is to support its decisions. EVEN THOUGH WE MAY
NOT FULLY UNDERSTAND THE REASONING BEHIND CERTAIN
DECISIONS, WE KNOW THAT UPHOLDING THEM WILL BE FOR OUR
LASTING GOOD." What if they change their minds later>
I would rather be confused than blindly follow. I
would rather trust God and His written word. You said,
"Jehovah's Organization provides everything I need to
live a good life". I say "God has provided me
everything I need for a good life."
Mom, do you not see you in me? When you became a
witness didn't you tell your mom? Didn't you stick
tight to what you believed even through persecution
from some of your family members?
I love you with all my heart and really want you
to come stay with us. You can even just show up if you
want! My door is always open for you and I will never
turn my back on you. You don't have to kiss your best